Hi.

These blog posts are coming less frequent. I'm spending alot of time at Adams and trying to avoid spending time alone. Or perhaps it is because i'm trying to avoid logging onto a computer and wasting electricity. I worry too much. Seriously. I was upset on Saturday to find out that the World leaders hadn't reached an agreement in Copanhagen, since they're too stubborn to put their differences aside! It makes me wonder what's next .. it upsets me that I cannot see into the future so I can reassure myself that everythings going to be okay. I go through phases when I feel defeated and I have a defeatist attitude, which is no way to be. But then I go through stages when I feel like there is no way that world leaders will refuse to help? I feel guilty doing most things, because it's the foundation of our lives that are causing the problem. Our lifestyle needs to change. I'm avoiding turning on the news because I can't afford to make myself ill again. It's a horrible state of mind and I don't want to bring anyone down with me, so I don't really talk about it. I panic whenever theres a rainy day incase I wake up one morning and everything has flooded, and villages and cities cease to exist. I don't really know what else I can do. I use very little electricity and don't drive .. I walk and take the bus wherever I can. I'm trying to get people on board but people just don't seem to be interested. Things that used to excite me just don't anymore. My new years resolution isn't about me, it's about trying to make things better for everyone .. having a resolution like: "To lose weight." or something like that, just feels wrong to me. I'm not knocking people who do have goals that involve just themselves, but I feel as though people are more concerned for themselves than everyone. It's like everyone is in a bubble, and just shut on when it comes to sacrafising things for the good of others. Would it kill people to walk or take the bus? Or spend time with the family in one room so that not every light and electrical appliance in the house is left on? Or even just switch things off after they've used them?! That's the thing, I get bulked down with things like that, but I can't change the world overnight. What is the point in me going to university when i'm going to be constantly panicking over the consequences of travelling to Bournemouth every week? I'd rather just stay here and work on making this world a better place for everyone..

I was walking to the bus stop from Adams this morning and I could see people with their lights on in their front rooms, at 11am. What's the point in having the sun there when you just use electricity? It's completely pointless? I think the Governement should create restrictions on the amount of electricity used every week, and the amount of miles you do on your car a week, and that you cannot go over. I think that would help limit it, because people will be more cautious on the amount of electricity they use. When I move into my own place, i'm going to install a water meter, which gives you a restricted amount of water to use each week or month. It'll save people money, and obviously they will moan .. but they'll be thankful when they finally realise what we have done to help. People need to learn to be less selfish. Less lazy. I'd happily sacrafice a holiday abroad if it meant that I didn't contribute to climate change. I'd feel guilty going anywhere that involves stepping on a plane. It's not as if it would last forever. People invented electricity and cars, and now people must challenge themselves to create things that are useful to everyone and do not harm the environment. It can be done, it's just that people are so set in their ways that they refuse to change. I welcome any new invention/development that proves to be better for the environment. I don't care if I look like an idiot to my friends and family. I'll feel better about myself knowing that I wasn't one of the worst ones, who would be saying to themselves "I should have done more.". I need to relax now I think. I have a feeling i'm making myself ill again .. great.