Hi.

These blog posts are coming less frequent. I'm spending alot of time at Adams and trying to avoid spending time alone. Or perhaps it is because i'm trying to avoid logging onto a computer and wasting electricity. I worry too much. Seriously. I was upset on Saturday to find out that the World leaders hadn't reached an agreement in Copanhagen, since they're too stubborn to put their differences aside! It makes me wonder what's next .. it upsets me that I cannot see into the future so I can reassure myself that everythings going to be okay. I go through phases when I feel defeated and I have a defeatist attitude, which is no way to be. But then I go through stages when I feel like there is no way that world leaders will refuse to help? I feel guilty doing most things, because it's the foundation of our lives that are causing the problem. Our lifestyle needs to change. I'm avoiding turning on the news because I can't afford to make myself ill again. It's a horrible state of mind and I don't want to bring anyone down with me, so I don't really talk about it. I panic whenever theres a rainy day incase I wake up one morning and everything has flooded, and villages and cities cease to exist. I don't really know what else I can do. I use very little electricity and don't drive .. I walk and take the bus wherever I can. I'm trying to get people on board but people just don't seem to be interested. Things that used to excite me just don't anymore. My new years resolution isn't about me, it's about trying to make things better for everyone .. having a resolution like: "To lose weight." or something like that, just feels wrong to me. I'm not knocking people who do have goals that involve just themselves, but I feel as though people are more concerned for themselves than everyone. It's like everyone is in a bubble, and just shut on when it comes to sacrafising things for the good of others. Would it kill people to walk or take the bus? Or spend time with the family in one room so that not every light and electrical appliance in the house is left on? Or even just switch things off after they've used them?! That's the thing, I get bulked down with things like that, but I can't change the world overnight. What is the point in me going to university when i'm going to be constantly panicking over the consequences of travelling to Bournemouth every week? I'd rather just stay here and work on making this world a better place for everyone..

I was walking to the bus stop from Adams this morning and I could see people with their lights on in their front rooms, at 11am. What's the point in having the sun there when you just use electricity? It's completely pointless? I think the Governement should create restrictions on the amount of electricity used every week, and the amount of miles you do on your car a week, and that you cannot go over. I think that would help limit it, because people will be more cautious on the amount of electricity they use. When I move into my own place, i'm going to install a water meter, which gives you a restricted amount of water to use each week or month. It'll save people money, and obviously they will moan .. but they'll be thankful when they finally realise what we have done to help. People need to learn to be less selfish. Less lazy. I'd happily sacrafice a holiday abroad if it meant that I didn't contribute to climate change. I'd feel guilty going anywhere that involves stepping on a plane. It's not as if it would last forever. People invented electricity and cars, and now people must challenge themselves to create things that are useful to everyone and do not harm the environment. It can be done, it's just that people are so set in their ways that they refuse to change. I welcome any new invention/development that proves to be better for the environment. I don't care if I look like an idiot to my friends and family. I'll feel better about myself knowing that I wasn't one of the worst ones, who would be saying to themselves "I should have done more.". I need to relax now I think. I have a feeling i'm making myself ill again .. great.

Longg time ..

It's actually been ages since I posted something .. but to be honest i've had a rough few weeks in regards to stress levels. I don't really want to go into it, as it's bummed me out too much already .. but i'm such a worrier and I basically worry about things that are unknown and are out of my control and it annoys me. It's since i've been in London, when I spent alot of time by myself and with my thoughts .. was both the best and worst trip ever in that respect. However, "Yesturday is history, tomorrows a mystery and todays a gift. " :) Take each day as it comes and be thankful. Thats the quote I need to begin to live buy because otherwise i'll waste time worrying about things and missing out on everything good that's happening to me!

Well .. yesturday was my 18th birthday!! But the celebrations began on friday when mine and Adam's families went out to Prezzo for a lovely meal! We were both really nervous at first just incase our families didn't get on as well as we did, but thankfully they had a great time. Spent TOO MUCH money, but my mum said I was worth every penny :) And I also got two early birthday presents: Two tickets (Me and Adam) to go see Footloose at a theatre in Bournemouth in February, and my mum and Vinnie bought us a night in a nice hotel for after :) So the birthday celebrations sort of carry on until then!! And I also got to blow out the candle on my cake, and pretend it was my birthday! Didn't get really drunk but had enough drinks to feel tired and want to go to sleep :P But before then, my mum gave me my main present from my mum and dad .. A MacBook Pro laptop :D The great thing about it is that it's 'green' (That's what I've been worrying about basically..), meaning that it doesn't take as long to charge, turns itself off completely instead of going to sleep when un-used, made out of recycled materials and doesn't realise Murcury :D Yaaaay, so I don't feel guilty when using it. Which is always a good thing!

And on Saturday it was mine and Adams six month anniversary, so we went to Nando's after I finished work and ate loads of food (well I did!). It was nice to go out because we've been saving money for christmas so we've sat in a lot, which has been loads of fun anyway! Just shows you don't need to spend lots of money to have fun! Then .. on the sunday it was my birthdayy!

I ended up with around £100 from friends and family, and I'm currently surrounded by a desk of really colourful cards. I also got a pair of Ugg boots from Adam (which are amazinggggg!! I've wanted a pair for ages!), and a 8g memory card for my camera. He also bought me an Apple mouse for my laptop so I can do my work on photoshop without using the touchpad. I then went to London with my him, my dad and sisters :) We went to Harrods, then to Hyde Park to visit Winter Wonderland :) It was expensive there, but we had a great time!! We got home at about half 5, and me and Adam slowly started getting ready for a meal with my friends :) Was a really good night, and even though a few people cancelled on me .. everyone I loved was there! Got a few surprise presents :P and had a few drinks, good food and took lots of photos. All in all it was a really good day!! Now my pay goes up, I can vote, drink, buy cigarettes (Yay? :|) but I have to pay tax. Devostatingggg. Oh well :)

I've got Paramore on friday with Adam, Jess, Gemma and Matt which should be great :D Going to take a while to get there, so i'm missing a day off college meaning that I miss out on EMA. So because of that, i've decided to have a lay in (seeing as i'm ahead in my lessons atm) and i'm going to go in at midday for the radio meeting.

Being the presenter for my college radio station is really great! I've messed up a few times, but I know i'm improving. Then i'm walking to town (I walk and bus everywhere now, I would choose to walk but the bus is going to be driven whether or not i'm on it .. and works out better if everyone takes the bus as appose to about 60 cars) to get the start of Adam's present seeing as I have the money now! Then i'm off to Adams for the night :) I like spending the night at Adam's, it's a nice change of atmosphere. I may walk there, depending on how tired or cold I am .. because it's apparently freezing outside. I don't care how cold it is though, I love wintertime :) Right, I promised myself that I would clean my room before I go and shower for the day ahead, so I suppose I should .. otherwise i'll be sleeping in a basic pigsty when I get home tomorrow!

Now i've got my own laptop i'll be able to write in more now, which is good because I like writing my thoughts down .. theraputic :)

Oh yeah .. i've got offers from Portsmouth and Southampton Solent universities .. and I've heard nothing from Bournemouth .. and nothing ∫at all∫ from Westminster, not even an email saying that they've recieved my application. So now i'm just checking my emails on the regular (or iregular .. more like every hour!) to see if they've replied!! How sad am I?!

Bye :) x

Too early!

Even though I don't have college until 10.20 today, I still managed to get up at 10 past 8, due to the family all having to leave at quarter to 8 and waking me up! How annoying.. didn't get to watch One Tree Hill last night because my TV has decided to go mental and only pick up one fuzzy channel, when i'm supposed to have Freeview. Great one :D Did a MASSIVE shop at Asda last night and got loads of stuffs, had a really nice dinner and got some Guylian chocolates to take into college today :)

I haveeee .. English, Media and ICT today (Y) Funtimes. And I have to somehow break it to my English teacher that i'm not going to be here at all next week, which he's probably going to be like "Oh no! It's VERY important that you are here Sophie!" It's always important! But I will catch up .. going to have to, can't really allow myself to get behind :P Reeeaaaalllyyyy need to go and get my GCSE certificates from my senior school, it's literally 5 minutes down the road from me but it's in the opposite direction from college! Which makes it 10 minutes, with probably about half hours wait trying to get them inbetween! Let's hope today that my UCAs gets sent off to my principal.. should be getting offers by christmas to go to interviews! If i'm lucky!

Riiiight, going off to wash my hair and get ready for college. Mehhh. Another day begins.

Thank god ..

Finally finished my english coursework! Not quite 1000 words but I managed to come out with 921 (Y) Not bad I must say :D That's a big weight off my shoulders! Now I just need to complete a deconstruction of two radios, and complete an article for the college magazine that was supposed to be in today! Luckily I didn't see him! I will do it tomorrow after college, I've just been so busy this half term with the Daily Echo.

Had a really amazing time :D Got given loads of press releases from an entertainment writer (which I found really interesting, even though they were only 200 words each). I've had 5 things printed in the paper, and read headlines on the Echo website three times out of five. Was really interesting to see what a professional enviroment is like. I think that I would fit in quite well, and can't wait to go to London next week to work at Sugar! Bring on more work experience :D

Also had my UCAs sent off back to my tutor today. So hopefully tomorrow he can put in my reference he's written and it can get sent off to the principal .. then off to the uni's after that! Funtimes :D

I started my first ICT Structured Task today in my ICT lesson, its only worth 10% of the coursework grade, but I don't want to throw away any possible marks (which I did in the mock, by not adding in page numbers in the footer! Otherwise I would have had a perfect score!) so I was asking loads of specific questions and the teacher was like "I think you're dwelling on something that is only worth 7 marks Sophie .." But if it's only worth 7 marks, surely I should be able to get a secure maximum score? It's not that difficult! They even said themselves that you have to be so blatant with everything you do and all of your annotations, and you HAVE to make sure you stick to the criteria given or you get no marks at all?! I'm definately not dwelling on nothing! It's important to meee. I suppose i'm just a perfectionist and it would really annoy me if I slipped up on something stupid like writing (a) instead of Task 2 (a). It's completely stupid but i'm going to make sure I don't make any mistakes! I need a good grade in this course to cancel out the fact that I got an E in History last year! I need to get as many UCAs points as possible. Stupid teachers! Mehhh.

My sisters just told me that she's got an audition for Britains Got Talent with her friend. They're really talented, I hope they go through! It's on a sunday so hopefully i'll be able to go for support :D If not, I'll just pay Adam to take me up there and surprise them on the day :P When I had my audition two years ago my entire family came, so I better be able to go!!
I'm off to Asda for a massive shop when my mum get's back to work, so at the moment i'm catching up on vital computer time, seeing as I always got home from the Echo late and couldn't get on the computer to add a new entry. Going to have 5 days without a computer at all next week .. NOT looking forward to that :(

26th

Haven't wrote in for a while, been busy with Adam all weekend and stuff...
Started my work experience at Daily Echo today. Had a good time and wrote something that might be in the paper, and read out the headlines for the sixty-second headline video .. but that was it. Sat at my desk for three hours doing nothing at all, whilst the work experience guy infront of me got like 3 jobs more than me (Y) But I can't really complain, it's better than nothing I spose. Let's just hope it get's a bit better, and I really hope it isn't like this when I go to Sugar because the only reason i've chilled out is because i'm at home .. and I will only have a hotel room to go back to - except from seeing my dad which is a positive point.

Need to relax tonight, Adams coming over and One Tree Hill is on :) Then the same tomorrow ..
Lucky I have patience!

Annoying

Got some stuff to do so I don't think I can go to dance tonight!
I really want to go, but I don't have time to get my first draft of my english essay done because i'm at Daily Echo all next week so I need to get as much done tonight as possible!
:( Dilemma.

Went in earlier than needed, and tried to sort out my personal statement. Turns out that I don't have the right 'fee code', and my date of starting at Westminster is wrong .. which has only just suddenly sprung up because it wasn't wrong when I sent it? So I need to go see some UCAS lady to get my application sent back to me to change stuff. But I need to make sure it's done by tomorrow, because the reason I rushed was so it could be done for half term. So that's kind of annoying! Also, they did say they lost my reference from my english teacher .. but they've found it now :D

Also tried to sort out why my ICT teacher has marked me absent for the past two lessons, even though i've been there? Managed to get one changed, but my lesson on monday was taught by a different teacher who I need to get hold of so she can change it. But she doesn't come in until monday after half term .. so i've tried to email her but I haven't heard anything back yet! And I need to get it sorted before tomorrow or I won't get any EMA and I need it to buy a week bus pass for my work experience next week. Gawdddd. Let's just hope she replies for tomorrow.

Managed to get some ideas for some potential stories for the Daily Echo, with help from my 1st year mentor, which was a big help. Need to do some more research and go out at some point and buy the Daily Echo so I can keep up to date. They said that it could be something to do with my college, but seeing as my work week is in the half term .. that just failed completly, along with my first idea. Thank god I sorted it whilst I did otherwise I'd have nothing!

Went to the first rock challenge rehursal, it did really well but I really wasn't in the mood to dance so I didn't put in 100%. But I know what the moves are and i'll practice them before the next practice. And we're meeting up tomorrow lunchtime to make some more up! Hopefully it'll go well.
Had a ring around trying to get some quotes for hoodies and tshirts today. Got given a personal email address and a website, and found some quotes on prices and some pictures, gunna show a dance teacher tomorrow because I don't want to just go ahead and send over artwork (which needs to be made too!) without authorising with someone that knows a little bit more about it. They have tshirts and hoodies printed all the time too so maybe they can help me? I'll go see them tomorrow too.

Also spending the majority of the day (including two free lessons) interviewing and taking photos for the college magazine and radio. Going to be in and out of the training field all day interviewing army troops who are doing teambuilding with public services students. Thankfully Kim is doing it too, so it won't all be me! Whilst speaking to my mentor I also said i'd take photos, and then he sort of assumed I would write the article too. So i've got to do that over the half term (which obviously I can't really do..) and have it for him on the first day back!

Yaaay

I LOVE thursdays at college, seeing as I don't have to be in until lunch!
Got a rock challenge rehursal, and then ICT and Media. But it's okay :) Have dance tonight too .. funtimes. About to go get ready so I can go in and get some work done and sort out some stuff before I need to be there. Better put the song we're using on a cd aswell lol!

Busy!

Gawddd .. it's been a busy couple of days!
Forgotten what I wrote last so I could just be repeating myself :P
Was meant to go to the Solent university open day today, but I just wasn't in the mood to discuss my future at all today, and the good thing about it being close is that I can organise one anytime!
Spent most of the day in the art library at college, working on my photography book. It's looking really smart now, I don't like my research and stuff being really boring .. it doesn't make it fun to look at. Let's just hope that my photos are just as good! Because if they fail than it was pointless :P
Had a meeting for the radio station today, had to have a little tester session by introducing ourselves and the weather reporter into a professional microphone thing. Mine wasn't too bad, I don't think .. Me and Kim are doing our first interview package on friday. Got some army people coming into college who we have to interview, and we actually get to take part if we want to! Not too sure if i'm up for that though tbh, I'd prefer to just watch and record audio that we can use lol. Was meant to have rock challenge, but i'm not choreographing anymore .. I have too much to do now. Have to remember to hunt down my english teacher tomorrow and ask him to send my tutor a reference, because as soon as he writes one I can get my UCAS application sent off to my principal, then off to the universities! Scary stuff.
Also have to sort out why I haven't got another weeks worth of back-payment on my EMA, and also why they've marked me absent from my last two ICT lessons .. meaning that I won't get my EMA if they're not sorted. And I also have to go speak to my mentor about events in the area so I can have some ideas to take to the Daily Echo on monday.. Gahhhh.
Also have to complete an english essay. Gay. I do have the whole of half term but I also have work experience so i'm not quite sure i'll do it .. lol! Got 300 words done already ..

Going to cinema with Adam tonight :) Just gunna finish having a facebook stalk and then work on my photography!

Morning post..

Haven't really got long because Iain's on his way to pick me up and take me to college. Really glad i'm getting a lift today because of my A3 sketchbook (which I don't wanna carry), and the fact that I decided to bring my own lunch today, and it won't fit in my bag (Y)
Really dark outside, getting wintery now! Can't wait for christmas :D
Wearing a nice baggy jumper today and comfy jeans, can't be bothered to dress up. Just wanna get in, do my work and get out again :D Need to plan what ideas i'm gunna take to the Daily Echo.. getting scared seeing as it's a week away now! And I also need to fill in a form so that my UCAS can get sent off, which i'll do when I get into Media, and rescan my camp america references because I've missed some stuff out. Funtimes :) Tonight I desperately need to tidy my room, since I've moved from the boxroom to a really long one i've taken advantage of the space and dumped carrier bags with like one thing in them all around the room. I'm also finally filling up all of the empty picture frames today with photos that i'm gunna print off at Boots. Should make my room look alot more homey once i've got loadsa random people in photos staring at me :D Funtimesss .. Also taking my long exposure shot of the Millbrook flyover at night tonight. Gunna be cold, but hopefully if I do it well it'll look really impressive. Where the hell is Iain? I have college in 15 minutes! I always text him at like half 7 when I get up (Thinking that he'll be here at 8 which is the time I leave to walk, so I spose a little later is okay .. ) and I don't hear anything till 8 when he says "Crap! Slept in again, be round yours soon." It's rather funny because I know it's gunna happen. Blatantly buying him an alarm clock for christmas. He'll hate it but it'll benefit. Haaa.

Had a really good weekend with Adam, but I'll go into that when I get in from college because it's kind of alot (Surprise surprise!)

:)

Bleugh!

I need to think of better titles for my entries .. not exactly very good if I need to refer back to them :P Had a really weirdly packed day today, even though I had two free lessons!
Found out that I have to do a draft of my first piece of english coursework in a week because the following week i'm at Daily Echo. Extra stress on me :) Greaaat! And I've only just figured out what i'm doing because i'm sooo worried about getting it wrong it's stopping me.
Then I went and had a hot chocolate at Costa with Iain :) That was fuuunnn. Paid for my UCAS today aswell (But actually turns out I sent it off, but my tutor hasn't received it so I have no idea who i've sent it too..great. Apparently it's getting sorted though and will be sent off to uni's by friday!) And also started some media work :) I just get seriously bored in the canteen so I just go off and do work now instead of actually having a lunchtime! lol.

I then had another free, so me and Iain went to The Range and I bought an A3 sketchbook for my photography work :) Looks alot more professional than the crappy red A4 ones they give us at the start of the year! So then I had to transfer stuff over from my old book. But I basically started again cos at the time I had no idea what I was doing and it was basically rubbish .. but now i'm starting fresh with new (hopefully) great ideas in a new book! Started printing some photos of other artists work already but I don't have much time cos i'm going to dinner with my dad and sister at 6 and I have to have a shower ..

So yeahhhhhh .. fun times. Time to start getting my head down and doing some work i'm thinking. And I have Westminster open day tomorrow. Gotta be at the pick up point (which is somewhere in Townquay .. need to sort that out!!) at 7AM. Funtimes. I'm going to be dead by the time I get home. Taking my camera with me tomorrow aswell :) Gunna take some documentary photos of city life and such. Anyway, better get a move on..

Day off!

Wooo! Good day today .. well so far anywayyy :D
Had a lovely long lay-in at Adams and got into Shirley at like 11.. Was meeting Charlotte at 12.30 so I didn't really want to go home and come out again so I just looked around shirley. LUCKY FOR MEEEEE... I've got my first 3 backpayments (£90!!), and i'm getting more money tomorrow and like £60 monday..) Good times!

Spent the day with Charlotte and Laura and Alfieee.. helped book Alfie's christening because Charlottes apparently crap on the phone :) It actually turns out that baptisms are free! Who would have thought?! So yeah, sorta embarrased myself infront of a vicar but oh well! Also booked my birthday meal :D
Going to dance and cinema laterrr! Fun times :)
Bought two pairs of really nice dolly shoes and a hat today. I'm literally living out of one pair of dolly shoes and I need more than one pair when I do my work experience ... and the hat was cute and only £6 so yeahhh.. also got some work trousers cos i've been wearing long tops to cover up that i'm wearing black jeans to work.. :P But my mum paid for them cos she's cool (Y)
Booking the coach tickets for saturday tonight too :) I'll get them up now actually..
And I have to do my ICT work before I go out .. and I only have an hour ..

Alot of stuff!

Yeah, so I've had a packed in day..
First of all, I decided to quit trampolining today. Sorta felt like I have alot on, and I will need to give up something eventually and I wasn't as dedicated as I am to the other things i'm doing. And to be honest i'm not very good :) Went to town today and had a starbucks with Iain .. had a good old chat! Got back to college and had a rock challenge meeting. Was supposed to have a radio meeting aswell today but no one was there so I left that! I got everyones opinion on the tshirts and i've taken it upon myself to sort them out if people want them. Also had a look at designs of tshirts and prices, and noted down the colours that everyone wants. But tbh no one seems as dedicated as I thought they'd be .. I suppose it was different when we were in school. Can't say I blame them though, I have alot on this year and have decided that I don't want to do the bulk of choreography I orginally signed up for. I prefer to just hover and lend a hand with anyone, and organise e.g.:Tshirts :D Don't want to get stressed because Rock Challenge is fun .. but obviously my college and uni prep work is much more important.

Got my first photo for Camp America today. I look HILARIOUS. But it does look like i'm working hard and i'm infront of everyone else so it shows that I was teaching them. Gunna upload that now, wish it could be edited first though. But mehh .. don't even care. Might just take some of the redness out of my cheeks though :P But can't change the fact that my arms look like marshmallows :D God I look funny!! Got really stressed today. I'm just thinking that i'm doing loadsa stuff and i'm trying to pack everything in and stand out! Crappp, that reminds me .. gotta book my birthday meal in a minute! Margheritas for my 18th with loads of my buddies! Gunna be amazing :D If everyone likes me enough to come .. got 15 out of 22 replies today .. but some people are on holiday and no credit and stuff .. or just don't like me :) Either one!!

Going to Winchester tonight to watch my sister at the Shakespeare Festival. Should be quite fun! Gives me a chance to get out of the house and relax for a bit :D And I have a day off tomorrow. Meeting Charlotte, but gotta make sure I get my ICT work done before the end of the day .. seeing as I decided to go to town instead of doing it. I am such a reb.
Right. Brightened the picture and now my eyes are like reeeaaalllyy dark brown/black. But I suppose it's better than white. I'm gunna drag myself away from this now, and go get ready seeing as Adams coming over and I need to shower yet (Y) Funtimes.

Organisation..

Kinda feel like I got alot of things done today ..
Completed my UCAS application, so that means tonight I can send it off with my money and hopefully get accepted into some universities :D That's a big weight off my mind tbh ..
Also had a look at fruitoftheloom.com about Rock Challenge tshirts :) Didn't think we were gunna do them this year, but everyone moaned about not having them last year so if I take that on as my role. Emailed the tshirt design guy about how much it would be to get a bulk of like 65 done, and gunna try and print up some photos so I can show them at the meeting tomorrow. Got a few design ideas in my head, but i'm gunna ask everyone because I want everyone to look the same on the day. Also got the information for the Westminster open day this saturday, printed that out so now I have my schedule sorted :D Just gotta book that, which i'll either do tonight or tomorrow. Need to also print out about a million copies of the rock challenge idea so we can show them to everyone tomorrow, but they're at college and i'm at home .. so I suppose that has to wait. Was considering just typing it up again but that is effort and I don't really wanna use up all the ink in the printer for them to just be thrown away :P
Did well today I think, just need to keep my head down and do everything on time. Gotta remember to do my english homework tomorrow before the lesson (Was supposed to be in today but forgot to remind myself on my phone to actually do it, luckily we don't need it till tomorrow!) Better write that on my phone now .. So i've actually got to do alot in tomorrows free lesson... oh well! Keeps me busy :)

I have trampolining academy tomorrow :( Kind of dreading it since I almost died attempting to do a backdrop after not stepping on a trampoline in like a year and a half. It's really intimidating because all the other people were in the academy last year, so i'm like the retard one that can't do anything! Oh well .. i'll just give it a go and bounce about for an hour and a half :D
I'm kinda anxious to get everything done now though .. keep thinking I need to do something..

:)

Been with Adam all weekend so haven't wrote in at all .. after college when I'm sat in the house by myself is the only time I get to go on the computer really!
Worked all weekend .. well total of 12 hours, but still! I've earned back my pay for my day off next week, so I won't be low on money at the end of month. Also managed to get my second reference done for Camp America, which have both now been scanned onto my application page :D Now I just need the pictures and video, one in which I should be getting tomorrow (If Rhea remembers to bring her camera in!) Also handed in my EMA form, and my envirophone cheque .. so I'll be with money soon enough!
I finished my personal statement today and put it into my UCAs application, only to have to shorten it down even more! But it's done now! All I need is my BTEC identification number and I can go ahead and pay the £20 and start sending it off to universities. I'm really early at doing it, but typical me wants to get it done right away and i'm anxious to get it finished! Hopefully i'll have the ID number by tomorrow, and I can somehow get the money to send it off. Because the sooner I send it off the sooner I can start going to interviews etc.
Starting to get abit annoyed with college work at the moment, just at a bit of a standstill i'm thinking. Getting everything done but it's just really mehh at the moment. Just been texting Gemma, whose going to help me with my personal study in photography (I just need to her to wear loadsa makeup and smear it down her face and look depressed :P), and i've got to do a couple of pieces of IT work, which I'll probably do tomorrow because I cannot be bothered atm!
Also had a rock challenge meeting today, where we decided on whose choreographing what section. We're meant to be having another meeting on wednesday (which I now remember I can't do because of college radio meetings) , where I think I'm gunna say that I don't want a direct role this year. I'm doing ALOT. Daily Echo, Sugar, radio, magazine, Camp America, dance and trampolining .. on top of my college work. I seem to be taking on alot to make sure I stand out on my university application. Going to be all for nothing if I don't get in!

Got an open day for Westminster University on saturday :) Me and Adam are coachin' it up (Y) (Which I need money for aswell :) and spending the day there. This means I've now looked at 3 of my 4 choices (Bournemouth, Portsmouth and Westminster), which just leaves Solent .. gotta find out about that .. I think I need to go relax now.

Yum :)

I have a Galaxy cookie crumble (Y) Possibly the best chocolate bar everrr! Probably not the healthiest choice, but screw it! :D
Had a really good day out, can't describe how cute Alfie is .. spent like 2 hours in Pizza Hut, only eating 2 and a bit slices of pizza (but left the crust cos it was nasty), so i'm not too full when I go out to Nando's with Adam later. Nando's is the best resturant ever! £20 for a complete meal for two..with refillable drinks! It's amazing!

Got a letter through confirming my work experience with Daily Echo at the end of the month! Really excited because I know someone who did it when she was applying for university and they send you out to find stories and things, which seems really exciting :D But, they said that you need to come along with at least one story/feature idea .. which off the top of my head I have nothing, but I have over 2 weeks .. and I just need to focus on it and hopefully it'll be good enough to go into the paper or on the website. Had a couple of ideas but got to do a little research into them first :)

Really crappy weather, but christmas decorations in shops are starting to go up .. and Primark have brought in loads of displays of warm pyjamas, and La Senza have some cute ones too. Time to ditch the trackies and start buying cute PJ sets i'm thinking! I love christmas time :D And crappy weather, and coldness, and getting dark early, and early nights in bed. I'm so easy to please!

Pain!

Woke up this morning with a stupidly annoying pain in my neck, that has now worked its way down my back. I must have done it when I was dancing today, and I also went to dance last night for the first time in like 2 months which didn't make it much better.. and now it hurts to turn my head to the left, perfect :P Need to take some tablets before I go out today..
Meeting Charlotte, Alfie, Laura and Hayley .. with no money :) Greaaaat! I have a total of like .. £3 (Y) It always seems like I meet Charlotte whenever I don't have any money, and she always seems to have some. Unfair!
Found out that theres a paper jam in the printer somewhere, meaning that I can't print or scan anything .. which I spose is okay because at least I know I didn't break it! Seeing as I can't afford to pay out like £300 for a new printer!
Been spending more time in my bed than ever recently .. kingsize memory foam mattresses are AMAZING! Makes it hard for me to sleep anywhere else though, grown quite attached to it :D No college today! Sooo happy about that, and I don't have it next thursday eitherrr :D And we may possibly have a half day on tuesday because of open evening :) Start of years are greattt!
Kinda scared about missing two weeks because of work experience though! Hope I don't get too behind and miss something important .. oh well! Sugar magazine and Daily Echo will be waaaay more fun :) Can't actually wait!
I get to stay in a hotel in London for Sugar, which will be quite fun because I've never stayed by myself in a hotel before, even though my dad is like a 30 minute tube journey away and i'll be spending my evenings with him! Exciting stuffff :D
Better go get ready ..

Scanning

When did scanning become so difficult?
Just tried to scan my first reference, the printer made some weird noise that sounded like it had shredded my paper, then had a red flashing error.
Great.
Spose it has to wait until monday, and I hope the college scanners work otherwise I will be hurting someone :)

Yep..

Managed to get my video and photo sorted .. but the video is on someone elses phone and the photo is on someone elses camera. Things will get sorted but the problem is with me is that I worry until it is completely finished, even though it will be by next week. Managed to get the official stamp needed for my first reference, meaning that I can upload it and hopefully find another.. have no idea where though?
Auditions today went well, hurt my voice a bit and I think I have whiplash on the right side of my neck from one of the moves .. which sucks a little. And i'll probably make it worse when I go to dancing tonight because I haven't done it in soooo long! Kinda nervous, and kinda regretted saying that I'd go tonight, seeing as I'm just stupidly stressed with everything and fancy just chilling or going to the cinema or something ..

Thankfully, I have a day off college tomorrow meaning that I get to one of my best friends and her gorgeous little boy which will give me to relax I need. Andddd, my EMA contract came through today, so when I hand that in on monday I should get like £180 backpayment!! Which brings me onto my predicament of buying Uggs or using the money for christmas presents. Am I selfish or not? :P That's the real question lol. Wanted uggs for the past 2 years, but I also can't really afford to blow all my money seeing as I've decided I want to go to America - would be kind of pointless.

At the moment I kind of see everything i'm balancing at the moment about to boil over. It hasn't yet, but I know it's close because i'm slowly starting to lose it and lash out at the wrong people e.g.: Adam and Iain .. think I need a holiday ..

Hmmm..

Good news is that my parents have decided to pay for my Camp America .. meaning that I can start earning and saving money to live off of for 9 weeks (Y) And I managed to get my first reference today from one of my teachers, and I sound like I am a delight to work with .. don't know how true that is really :P Went to scan it into my application but turns out I can't without a professional stamp or letterhead meaning I can't do it until I go back into college tomorrow. Really annoyingggg. Butttt, on the plus side by tomorrow I should also have my activity video and one of the photos showing my amazinggg leadership skills at the Rock Challenge auditions. Funtimessss :D Hope it's all worth it!

Stresssss

I don't really need a reason to ever be stressed. I just get annoyed by something small and it just pisses me off and tends to ruin my day. (Y) Howeverrr, I have more positives than negatives. I've decided to do something productive and apply for a camp counsellor at campamerica.co.uk :) So hopefully I will be away at some summer camp next summer doing something productive instead of sitting around and being lazy for two months. But first payment is £60 .. which I do not have. :( Minor inconvinience .. Mehhh. And I need photos and videos. Riiight, I think I'll make a list. Other than that, I have a meeting tomorrow for my college radio station. And I have auditions for rock challenge on thursday, I can feel myself stressing already. Ohhh life. I feel sorry for Adam when he comes over .. :P

I never actually realised how much you need to put it to even be considered for a university place. I've done work experience at the Times, and am about to start Daily Echo and Sugar magazine .. but I'm still worrying about having my application chucked away. Hmm. Which is why I neeeeeeed to get into the college radio, so I have more than just print journalism experience. And if this volunteer thing works out, it could go down well :) Or not. Jeeeeezus.

Oh hi :)

First post! Thankyou Adam for making my blog ..
Look, here he is.. Love you!
(Btw, he's not the random bald guy in the back :P)



Me and Adam in London, seeing Asher Roth :)

I'm going to be really annoying now and write in this all the time!