Desperate Housewives..

I think I have an addiction to Desperate Housewives. Charlotte has lent me series 4 (But that means skipping series 3!) However, I think I may just read the synopsis' of each one because I don't think I can wait until I can watch them all, as I cannot afford to buy them right now and no one seems to have a copy of the 3rd series. I'm also revising, which is not fun at all. I need some more index cards to do some question and answer stuff, but I don't have any. I could go out now and get some I suppose? Or I could just read through the stuff I have then get some on the way home from work tomorrow? I know they're only 99p in the shop by Waitrose. Hmm .. I think i'll just wait. I have work tomorrow at 8.30-1.30pm. That's not bad, seeing as after that I don't have work until Tuesday night, as me and Adam are in Alton Towers for the weekend! Woooo! Can't wait. I'm bored. It's annoying having nothing to do, when you don't have work. It's not as if I can just go to college and do stuff. I'm done now! Great. So I suppose until my exams are over, it's more revision for me to pass the time. Love the excitement in my life right now. I want to go to London so badly. After the 26th I think I am going with some friends from college as a sort of celebration thing. But it's only the 9th and i'm BORED.

Erm...

I can never think of a decent title for my posts, seeing as I basically just ramble. If a particular subject occurs a few times throughout this i'll change my title from 'Erm..'. I GOT PAID TODAY. Alot of money. Shame none of it really goes on me lol! Love having my boyfriends birthday, my dads birthday, fathers day, and a year anniversary in the same month :) Ha. Oh well, at least we'll have a really amazing time in Alton Towers, and Adam will have a good birthday, and hopefully my dad will enjoy his UB40 tickets :D Guna be fun. I really want to try and make it last this time, and to be honest, I would love to save half of it. But it's hard when you have things to pay out for. I have college today at half 10 until 12 .. then i'm off to Charlottes. That'll hopefully take me up until 4 when I have to walk through the common to work, from 5 - 8.15. Funtimes. I would prefer to not go to work, but it's because of all the overtime i'm doing that I have so much money. Loving life basically! I'm going into town tomorrow to get Adam's birthday present (I would say what it is on here, but he reads it so ... nope :P), and perhaps get a few things for myself seeing as I haven't really got any summer clothes, and it's getting a bit too hot to wear black leggings and hoodies! I also need to get some birthday cards, and a fathers day one too. I'm wandering whether I should wear a dress to college today or not .. I would like to, and it's clear and sunny outside but I wonder if it's hot? I'll check in a minute, if not it's jeans and a boobtube i'm thinking.

Adam dyed my hair again last night :) It's nicer, but it's alot darker than it was before. That's because we were dying it on top of hair that was previously dyed that colour, so it wouldn't really be the same colour. I like it though, and last time the dye lasted me 6 weeks. And at £4.86 a box that last 6 weeks, it's a bargain compared to dying your hair professionally for like £80 and your roots showing through after a few months. I keep thinking that I should get ready for college soon, but then I see it's not even 9 yet, and i'm not meeting Iain until 10.

Me, Adam, Iain, Ben and Gemma went to the Bellemoor pub last night :) Was really fun, and it was good to see everyone out and about for a change. I'm bored now. What to do? I cleaned my room yesturday, and everyone looks good but i've got a couple of towels from yesturday on my floor and a tshirt hanging on the back of my chair that i'll put away. I have a lovely little mirror replacing my big amazing one, that deciding to fall off the side and smash on the floor, when I was cleaning out my dusting cloth :) Great. So i'm going to Ikea at some point to look for a new mirror, but to be honest that isn't a priority at the moment. I can deal with not having a big mirror, it won't kill me! I know what i'm going to do! I'm going to update my wall calendar, as I haven't in a while! Bye :) x

Busyyy..

It's been quite hard to write in recently. Most days i've been going straight from college to work, and then by the time I get home at like half 8 I really don't feel like writing down what I did. I'm saving up as much money as I can for next month (As I have my year anniversary, my dads and adams birthday and I need some clothes too!), so luckily i've been getting loads of overtime! Can't wait until the 26th when I get paaaaaid! Was at work from 8.30-1.30 today, then walked across the common to college for half 2, and had my ICT lesson. We had a practise exam, which we had to mark .. and turns out with my courseworks marks included I ended up with a B overall. And I didn't do that well on the exam either, meaning that I should hopefully be okay for the exam, if I keep revising and don't allow myself to get distracted.

Adams coming over in about an hour, as we're going to bingo at half 7 :D Can't really afford it but it's so much fun, and you may even win some more money! :) But I feel like going to sleep, so I think i'll get into bed in a minute because i'm actually really cold! I supposed to be tidying my room .. but I can't be bothered haha.

From next wednesday, I only have English lessons. Both my photography and ICT exams will be over! And so begins my gap year! Lol, freedom. I'm not going to be a student anymore. No student discount :( I think it's still valid until July/August. I think I need to go shopping and eat loads of Yo sushi and claim my 25% off so I can make the most of it. I've got next Tuesday off work too, so maybe even go into town with friends and partttyyyy? Haha, funny.

Bye.

Bed.

I love my bed. When I get my own place, the first thing I will buy is a bed. Because you can do practically everything in it. Except for a bathroom .. I need one of those. But still. I've been laid in bed since half 9, and even before that I was sat on it with Iain, Kim and Martin since half 7. So basically, I have not left my bed all evening. Story of my lazy life, really. Love it :)

Just watched Desperate Housewives, checked all my facebook, updated everything. And now I think i'll have a rant on here, since I haven't in a while.

I don't have college until half 2 tomorrow, which I annoying seeing as I am walking twenty minutes there and back for one lesson. But hopefully Iain will give me a lift back, so it doesn't seem so annoying. And it's for a lesson that I hate, that I don't even need -- with an exam in 12 days that I haven't revised for. Funfun. Things have just started to shut down now, and I need to make sure that I carry a camera round everywhere, seeing as we stop having lessons at the end of this month. Want to make sure that I have photos of everyone, because i've hardly taken any this year .. and this time in a few months everyone would have moved on - and i'll be here. On my lonesome. And I could count the number of friends i'd have on one hand. How depressing. Let's just hope these magazines reply to me, so that I can fill up my time.

Exam on friday. Went in at half 8 tomorrow (When I didn't have to be in until 1 .. how good am I?) and took some more photos. Still got some more to do, which I need to get the stuff for this weekend. I think I may have taken on a bit too much, seeing as I want to 5 series' averaging at about 30 individual photos, which I need to edit and print. So i'm going to need to get my ass in gear. I thought I was doing okay. I finished my BTEC Media Production course first in my year, with a Distinction* (The highest you can get!), then I found out my English coursework was top 10 in the year. But then I got my ICT coursework back, and my teacher was like "We expected you to do a bit better Sophie, we don't just want 'fine' do we?" I got a B! With 4% off an A, is that bad? Then my nan texted me and said: "Not as good as your other results, but you tried your best. Love you lots." Thanks nan. I don't think she meant anything by it, but still. Makes me feel like I shouldn't get so confident that i'm doing okay. I'm worried about my exams and stuff but i've got people telling me i'm going to be fine, then when I think I do well, apparently it's not good enough? My parents and Adam think i'm doing good .. but when I open my results, if I see anything less than a B then it's all over. In a few years, when I look back on my A Levels they probably would seem so minuscule in comparison to the problems I face in the future .. but for now it's as tough as it gets. And I really want to take on extra hours at work so I can get Adam a good birthday present, as he buys me so much and does so much for me .. I wanna show how much I appreciate the things he does. I can be quite spoilt and ungrateful sometimes. And the last thing i'd want anyone to feel is that I didn't appreciate them.

I'm seeing him tomorrow, and we're going to bingo :) That should be fun, shouldn't really be going as i'm quite short on money, but I really want to.

It's quite annoying, as i've been working since I was 16 and I have nothing really to show for my earning. No savings, £50 left to last me the month. But oh well .. at least I have my health :)

I'm voting tomorrow .. Green Party FTW! :D

Last day!

So it's the last day of half term .. Lauren's back at school and Adam's at work so i'm on my lonesome :) Love it! I'm going to clean the house abit later but for now I really can't be bothered to do anything! I've done some revision, but it's photography that needs my full attention when I get back, as the exam is 2 weeks from today. I've taken like 75 photos for one final thing, but I need to think up some more ideas of how to go about showing 'Collections' as a passion and an obsession. I have lots of different shaped bottles, and I wanted to fill them with things that people collect, like beads, coins, sand .. loads of random stuff. But then that's where my mind get's blocked. But I need my sketch book so I can really brainstorm and whatever .. so that means I can get marked on my ideas and that. I'll grab it tomorrow and just write all my ideas down whenever I can :)

Well anywaysssss .. i'll write in another time. Oh yeah, i've quit the Square Balloon. Yay!

Half term..

I haven't wrote in in ages! To be honest, I haven't really had much time! I'm currently laying in bed, while it's sunny outside.. farmville'in and what not. I love it :D I really should get some revision done, but I just want to relax! I have no plans next week (Apart from work for four hours on wednesday!) so I know i'm going to do loads next week. I just don't really want to get out of bed tbh .. is that wrong? :P

Tonight i'm going for a meal with Adam's family (Lol! Never gets old!) for his nan's birthday .. which should be fun. Only just got paid today though, and it sort of feels like i'm living payday-to-payday, which is kind of annoying but I do definately want to go.

My mums getting married tomorrow, so it's going to be a big, long day tomorrow. I've gotta be up by half past 8 to go get the flowers with Adam, then at Formula 1 hairdressers in Shirley to get my hair done at 10 .. then back to the house to get ready and the wedding is at 1. Should be a really good day, but unfortunately I need money for that too (Which I won't have after tonight! Haha!) but oh well .. i'll live. I get £30 on Sunday so that should be okay, and i'm not doing anything next week (i'll try not to anyway!). Right yeah .. so that's my exciting half term. Prep for exams and chill. Funtimes!

Alice In Wonderland!

Yaaaay, finally get to see it tonight! And it's going to be the first time i've been to the cinema since November when New Moon came out. Should be good (hopefully) if it's not as terrible as some people say it is? It has really mixed reviews. Hmmm. Just got back from college, had a shower and going to get ready as i'm meeting Kim and Iain for a subway before the cinema. Then we're meeting Adam there, and possibly bringing Gemma along too (If she agrees to let Iain pay for her!) Cant really be bothered to write a long thing today, but the things I want to say will probably ramble on without me noticing.

I worked an insane amount of hours last weekend, and i'm doing the same this weekend! But instead of starting at 10pm on saturday, I start at half 9! But the good thing about Saturday was that they let me go home at 12 (Bit pointless me being there for two hours but still .. it's money!) And i'm working Tuesday from 9.30-12 .. meaning I have to go straight from college to do my 5-8.15 shift at Waitrose, then off to town to have some dinner then start at the Square. Meaning that I won't get home until like half 12 from college. Knackering! Can't wait to see all this money go through though :D Gahhh .. let's work it out .. This week i'll be earning .. around £130. Wooo! :D Gotta start saving that though. Right, i'm going to go .. and .. I dunno, maybe play a game on my laptop before getting ready? I'll write a review in laterrrr.

Hideousss..

Wow. Just tried on my Waitrose uniform. The trousers are fitted terribly! They're made to be high waisted, so they're up past my belly button (The top ball of my belly bar pokes out of the top :S :P) so at least the crotch is where it's supposed to be, but it makes them really short. But I don't really have any other choice because they aren't made to go down by your waist .. and even if they could fit there (Which they can't, even though they're a size 12 .. as my size 10's haven't come in yet (Don't think i'll need them though -- serious ankle swingers!!)) the crotch would be extremely low and i'd look like a plank. So basically, i'm stuck with them. They look terrible, and made me feel extremely fat. Nice one! I hate when I get in one of these moods! Been feeling like this for a while though, so i'm going to stop it before my clothes don't fit anymore. I could be exaggerating, but if I don't feel good about myself then things obviously have to change.

Had my induction today at half 9. Adam said it would only take half hour, whereas Iain said when he has his at Tesco's it took him 9 hours! They basically gave us loads of paperwork to fill out about pay and tax and stuff, then we were sat at computers (there was only two of us though thankfully, otherwise the paperwork side would have taken AGES!) and had to go through 10 different training programmes. Fire safety, how to pick up a box, till training, good customer service .. too many to name. I think i've actually blacked out and forgotten it all because it was so boring. But I did learn what fire extinguisher goes with what type of fire though! I think i'll pick it up pretty easily :) Then we had a tour round the whole building, and I was given my locker and key fob (Which you top up on a machine and use to buy lunch?! It's well cool! You can even order dinner and have a cooked breakfast and lunch and stuff!) and theres machines where you can buy microwavable dinners to cook on the counters at the back of the dining room. It took me four hours! But luckily I got paid for it, meaning I earnt £25! I was actually really shocked! They look after their employee's so well in comparison to WHSmith! It's so much more professional and everyones needs are catered for! I can't wait to start working there and earn some real money :) Sad to leave WHSmith though .. but some things have got to be done.

Not looking forward to working this weekend though.

Friday: 9-2.30am (Get home at half 3 probably!) The Square

Saturday: 8.30-1.30 - Waitrose

2-6 - WHSmith

10-2.30am (Get home at half 3!) The Square.

So basically .. i'm going to be knackered! But i'll be earning about £100 this weekend, that's without the £30 EMA i'll be getting on sunday, and the £30 pay from 2 weeks ago from the Square going in tomorrow :D But now I need to start being serious with money, and start saving! I'm actually looking forward to seeing the money in my incentive saver keep going up, and having 3% interest going in. Wow i'm sad!

Because the induction went on for longer than I expected, I didn't end up going into college. Missed media and ICT. But i'm ahead in media, and we're only doing a practise task in ICT. I know I should be there for the practise but when we do the real thing for the coursework on monday, you basically get walked through it anyway .. and i'd already lost my EMA for the week (Lucky I got paid! That makes up for it :D) Wow, i've wrote a lot today!

Just waiting for Lauren and her friend Fleur to come round, 'Britains Got Talent' audition came through the post when I got in, so I texted her and they're all excited to come home and see if they got through. If they did, they get to meet Simon Cowell! Hahaaaa! Funny. I hope they do, they're seriously talented. But to get on that show you need to either be like Mariah Carey or be hideously bad! It makes good television I suppose. I just hate seeing people disappointed! I remember when I didn't get through last year, I was a little bit upset but what was more annoyed was everyone coming up to me trying to find possible reasons for why I didn't get in. They seemed more upset than I was!! That was annoying, so I just didn't mention it :P

Right .. i'm done for now. Essayyyy! Bye :)

Cold.

Not much to report today i'm afraid, except for the fact that my wrists are cold against this laptop! Stupid recycled aluminium :P Just kidding. I lovessss it. Got a fair bit of work done today, and hopefully by this friday i'll have all of my English coursework finished (Which my teacher said is an A in his eyes, which is great but he's a bit scatty and always changes his mind so I wouldn't hope for too much!) Just thinking that i'm going to need to plan some more work experience for next year during my gap year, so that I keep in touch with all things Journalistic .. but whether or not i'll do that is another thing :P

Going to Pizza Express with Adam tonight, yaaaay. Exciting. Might actually dress up and make an effort tonight. Ha! Let myself go, much? :D

:(

I had the most horrible dream last night :( I woke up in tears. I had a dream my mum died. It was horrible. But she was still around talking to me, but she said she was dead (And in dreams you know when someones telling the truth and when someones lying .. well I do anyway!) but she was leaving on Sunday, but wouldn't tell me where because she didn't know. We saw all of her family in The Square, playing Bingo .. and I was like "Have you told them you're dead?" and she was like "Nope.", and she told me that I had to sort out Lauren because she's swearing and now my mums dead she can't do anything about it. I kept on and off crying throughout the dream. I had a dream that Vinnie and Jordan were still going to live there, and that for some reason we weren't going to live with my dad, and Adam was driving me home, and I just kept crying. Then Adam was crying .. and when I asked why he said: "You're making me think .. it's horrible that we have to go through this throughout our lives." Which is completely true. So when my mum left this morning I made sure she gave me a hug. I feel kind of weird now, but it was just a dream..

New Job!

Wooo, just been offered a position at Waitrose! Better hours, better pay, better benefits :D Hopefully there's nice people there because i'm going to miss everyone there :( But to be honest, Beckie is leaving soon and Charlene is in her third year at university so she'll be leaving soon. Just wrote my letter of resignation, and I need to hand it in as soon as possible. Adam said to hand it in on Saturday, but my teacher and Charley said I should hand it in tonight?! Because apparently i'll get taxed so much because technically I have three jobs now?!?!

When I told my mum she said congratulations and asked if i'd be leaving The Square? She doesn't like it because I have to get a taxi home .. but I don't want to leave yet. I know it's minimum wage and stuff but I think it's good experience, and to be honest, what else am I going to be doing? Sleeping? Not important :D

So i'm walking to Waitrose once i'm ready and get my welcome pack .. and then Adam's picking me up :) Luckily TGI Friday's rejected me, otherwise i'd be in a bit of a dilemma! Hehe. I'm nervous, because i'd hate for it to be horrible and then miss WHSmith, but the guys I met at the group interview seemed perfectly nice.. let's see how long that lasts once I see who actually got the job? LOL. Right, I'm going to be getting ready now.

Gemma and Kim's play tonight -- exciting stuff! :D

Lazy Thursdayyyys

I love thursdays :) Don't have to get out of bed until about 10, when I can take my time to get in the shower and then get to college for ICT catch up at 12 :) Good times! But I have work tonight at half 11, and currently don't have any money to get home. It would be alot easier if my mum said I could ride my bike home, but she's like "You NEED to get a taxi!". What she doesn't understand is that I can't afford to get a taxi home twice a week! So unless she wants me to walk or get a ride home with a stranger, I don't really have any choice? To be honest, I shouldn't have spent all my money, because I was trying to save it. But i've set up an Incentive Saver account and it currently has £10 in it! Wooo. Basically, if I don't touch it I get 3% interest on it a month .. so that's like an extra £3 at the moment! And it should only go up from there, because i'm not planning on touching it! Also, my mum did say to me that she'd pay for my lunches at the moment seeing as i'm still in fulltime education .. which i've paid for because I don't like asking her for money. That is resulting in me having zero funds at the moment :) Funtimes. And also, I was meant to get paid from The Square on friday, but my manager only told me on monday (Because I texted him first asking when the payday was!) that he's messed up my bank details so there's a cheque for me on his desk. So I could have had money .. so it's kind of not my fault! LOL! Funny way of looking at it. But i'm still stuck with the dilemma of how i'm planning to get home tonight. My mum was like: "Sort it out!" My parents won't let me get the night bus home, or ride my bike .. so they choose the most expensive form of transport. Great one. Not my choice .. it's theirs. So really .. i'm a student, I can't afford taxis everywhere! Jeeeeeeeez. Right, I think i'm going to go have a shower in a minute so I can avoid using the hairdryer.

I had my interview at Waitrose on Monday (Which I was unsure about .. because I came across a bit try-hard I think!), but then they rang me on Tuesday morning and asked me back for a second interview! It's on Friday at 6PM. I'm going to be riding my bike there (Whether my parents like it or not!), because it's in Portswood and if you want to take a bus you have to bus to town first and then switch, which is completely pointless and time consuming. So yeah .. bike riiiiide. Woo! Let's hope I get it, because I think it's over a pound more than i'm on at my other job! :) It's not like I want to leave WHSmith but they won't offer me fulltime work when I finish college so I don't really have a choice! I've also applied for TGI Friday's, and they sent me an email on the 25th of Feb (a week ago now!) and said they'd recieved my application, and they'll inform me about the next steps in the application process .. but mehh. Taking too long! I would love a job there though, it would be so much fun!

Adam's offering to pay for my taxi home tonight. That's sweet of him, because he doesn't want me riding my bike home at 3 in the morning. That's fair enough, but it's annoying that i'm restricted because they encouraged me to get the job so that I can earn more money, and it's being blown on taxi's? I'm working on Saturday and there's a night bus I can get for like £2, but my mum won't let me take it so i'm going to have to get a taxi which is going to cost 5 times that amount? How is that fair? I know they're looking out for my safety but I don't really have a choice! Right, i'm going to check where the night bus goes from on Saturdays .. I wonder if there's a bus running at 3AM tomorrow morning? I'll check.. Cya!

Accomplished

I feel quite good about today :) I have my meeting booked with the principal, vice principal and the senior management team about reducing Taunton's carbon footprint. When I went into the office to book it the principal came out and the PA said: "This is Sophie. You know, Eco-Sophie!" and I was quite proud of that. She said that my email was thorough and informative, and that she needs to be informed about these sort of things so she's happy to have a meeting. Thats good, but to be honest as a principal she should really be clued up on these things, as she has the authority to enforce changes that could help everyone. But oh well, i've had to step in and make it happen :D ha!

Also, whilst checking my email so that I could get the playlist to write my radio script .. I found out that I have a group interview for Waitrose in Portswood :D It's on sundays I think. So if I do get the job there I will probably have to leave my job at Whsmith because it'll be too much. Also they did say that they were unable to employ me fulltime, meaning that unless I want to work four hours a week and do nothing for the rest of the week (Except working in the Square part-time) i'm going to have to leave and get a job. Not my choice, it's theirs. Oh well! It's more experience! Did the radio today, that was quite fun. But because i've missed half of my ICT lesson i'm going to have to start going to catch up classes on thursday lunchtimes (Which is annoying because I don't even have to be in college until after lunch -- but I suppose if it stops my teacher having a go, it'll be okay!) . And I handed in my English coursework today :) Which is a lot less to deal with, but I still have to improve on it, and i've been given another piece that I have to improve on too :(

I've got my open day at Solent University tomorrow at midday. I've got the day off college because I don't know how long it will last for, and i'm hoping it's not as bad as it's repetutation. But you can't believe everything you hear, so i'm seeing for myself. I've already got in.. so after tomorrow I can hopefully enter my decision about where I want to go into UCAS.

Adam's coming round tonight, and we're having pizza and garlic bread. Yummyyyyyyy! I think i'll try and find some way to watch Glee online or something, I missed it last night and it annoyed me because i'm really getting into it! Bye.

Tiiired.

Got in at half three this morning from work and I am shattereddddd. Lovely. And I need to somehow get started on my English coursework that needs to be on Monday. To be fair, i've done about half, I just need to get my analysis sorted. I'm still trying to get back into the routine of sleeping at the right time from New York. It was amazing, but honestly -- too many lights and electricity being used for my liking. Was a bit overpowering and just brought reminders of the damage it is causing. But .. hopefully things will change, and they are .. there were loads of posters and billboards advertising. One with a sea, and it said: London, Wembley 2092?

That scared me. But that gives us 80 years to make a change, which I think we will :)

Speaking of that, the email I sent regarding the carbon footprint of Tauntons has been replied to .. the principal emailed me back saying she wanted me to make an appointment with the senior management team to discuss my points because she is really interested :D How good is that?!

Adams just left, and we're going to look at bridesmaid dresses in town soon. And Nando's tonight with everyone :D That should be fun! We were supposed to go last night but I didn't realise I was working :( But I was at half 9, and because we weren't planning to go until half 8 because of everyones work times etc. it wouldn't have given us enough time to answer! But tonight shall be good! :D

Me and Adam are going to Bournemouth tomorrow :) Quite excited! And Charlotte moves into her flat tomorrow afternoon too, so me and Adam are helping her until 3 o'clock, then we're on our way :) Right.. i'm bored now. I wish my sister would hurry up so we could get going. I have things to dooooo! I'm not working until next thursday now, and apparently I start at half 11? Why so late? I'm going to ask if I can come in any earlier because it's a bit late for me to come out to be honest? Or i'll just go early and get myself a drink and sit in the bar for a bit.. at least it stops my mum asking questions, as I have college the next day at half 8! That is going to be horrible .. but it's gotta be done i'm afraid- I need to start saving!

I'm going to go now because i've run out of things to talk about. Bye!

Day 4 of 4

Good morning :)

I spent basically the whole of last night watching episodes of Glee on 4od, and now i'm listening to all the best songs on my iTunes. Defying Gravity, Walking on Sunshine, Somebody to Love, Don't Stop Believing, It's My Life, My Life would Suck Without You, No Air. :D

Adams home tonight :) Yaaaaay. And I also start my new job tonight, i'm quite scared because I have no idea what to expect at all. I haven't even opened a bottle with a bottle opener before? I'm buying a six-pack of coke today from Sainsbury's so I can practise with a bottle opener, because if I don't know that I know i'll get sacked straight away! I'm still in bed :) I don't have college until ten to one, but i'm meeting Tom and Charlotte for lunch so I don't even know if i'm going .. but it's okay because i'm not behind or anything. Just giving myself an early start to my half term! Lol. I tend to always do that. But if it's actually really important I don't, obviously.

I'm going to go up and have a shower in a minute and sort my room out. I was up until midnight last night cleaning it up, but because it was so late I couldn't change my sheets because the new ones are in my mums room and she was asleep. I'm also going to polish/dust, whatevers needed. I was also up doing my English coursework! Roger said that it has to be in on Friday, but then he said at the very latest the first day back? So i'm just going to do whatever I can and then give it to him after half term. I've got my third transcription now it's just the case of highlighting what's going on in my conversations and analysing in, comparing them to each other and seeing if my hypothesis' are true. Simple. :S Well it is, it's just a bit long-winded to be honest.

Right, I should get moving .. I don't want to waste the whole day in bed. I've going to Adams at like 8 tonight so that I can be there for when he gets back .. then he's going to drop me at work and wait for me at my house. Bless him :) He's going to get to watch Skins and i'm not :( And i'm not going to get in until like 3am which is kinda crap. Luckily i'm not going to college tomorrow! But I suppose I know people that go into town every tuesday and thursday and don't get in until like 3 .. and manage to crawl into college at half 8. Hungover and looking a mess, but they get it done! :D

I'm excited! More money, here I come! Let's just hope I don't get distracted by the good music, and don't get screamed at by drunk people .. wish me luck :) x

Day 3 of 4

Hey there. I got a job as a barmaid at The Square :) Had the interview yesterday and they told me there and then, not baaaaad. Really nervous, because it's late shifts and I feel too young because everyone goes out and parties every night and goes in there, and I don't even really go to town! I start tomorrow night at half 10 .. the time Adam was supposed to be coming home :( I felt so terrible but I couldn't just say no to my first night (Seeing as i'm going to New York on saturday and then i'm going to Bournemouth the following saturday with Adam.) Adam was really upset and annoyed but I think he's okay now. I hope so, because I like it when he supports me and is always there when I need to talk to someone.

Finished my photography essay (which is half of my coursework!) this morning, and I just need to print my photos off in the next lesson i'm in. I just need to do my english coursework now .. which I really don't feel like doing, and it needs to be done by Friday. I'm not actually going to be in college on friday but i'll email it to him.

It's been really cold today, sometimes cloudy, sometimes sunny. Had the teeniest bit of snow (Apparently we're catching the end of it being moved across or something..) and everyones like "Oh thats so wierd!" But last february it was snowing? I just hate when people highlight that something isn't normal, makes me worry. Didn't help that my friend randomly said: "It's global warming!" But to be honest, she doesn't know much about it and she doesn't seem to care too much so yeah .. it's a bit silly to get worked up about that. But things like that set me off.

I'm starting to worry about everything now. I'm turning into a very cautious person. I'm worrying about upsetting people and things happening to me and other people. I don't knowwww, it's stressful and quite tiring at times. I could just do with a nice big cuddle from Adam. I hate when we argue, and it makes it worse because he's in Birmingham. But he's coming home tomorrow, so i'm going to bus to his so i'm there when he gets back, then he's going to give me a lift to work at half 10, and wait at my house for me. How sweet of him :)

Haha. Just gone four o'clock and i'm in bed. Now that's just sad. I literally got up this morning and put on jeans, a big guys hoodie and my uggs. I looked a state to be honest, but I really wasn't bothered. I think i'm just going to go watch movies on my laptop, do some work and have an early night. I hope I can get to sleep a bit earlier because I didn't get to sleep until 2am last night. Text Adam but he didn't text back :( Really wanted to talk to him, but it was okay .. I fell asleep soon after. Just got a ring from Kim inviting me to town with her and Iain. I said I would go earlier after Iain was done getting his car fixed but I really don't feel like it now! Me and Iain went to Charlotte's at lunch today, and i've just got back now and i'm actually really tired! But I don't know if I could sleep. I think I may just watch 4od episodes of Glee to cheer me up. It'll catch me up to speed as well. I've just put the first episode on .. so i'm going to go, may write in later. Bye :)

Day 1 of 4

Adam left at 5 this morning, whilst I was half asleep. It was horrible, because I was drifting in and out of sleep so I missed spending the last 10 minutes with him :( Miss him loads. Going to just bury myself in work and happy movies to keep my mind off bad things. I'm seeing my friend Tom on Thursday for lunch, and i'm going to see if Charlotte wants to meet up at some point because i'm going to be taking Friday off anyway so i'll be missing out on my EMA.

Had a lunch with the principal today with the other people from the radio. Was nice to sit down and have a chat! Haha. Everyone also spoke about what's going to happen to improve the college, and putting in more recycling bins and stuff is going to happen apparently. I'll keep pushing it until it's done. It needs to be done, it'll help everyone out.

I'm feeling a little bit nervous about spending tonight alone? Because since i've gone into my whole 'environmental-addict' mode i've been really panicky and nervous about everything, and Adams always been there to calm me down. I'll just sit in with the family tonight and watch TV until later on when i'll go and watch a movie, have a shower and write my script for tomorrows radio show.

Right, I have 9 minutes of charge left so i'm going to say goodbye, otherwise my post won't save.

Adam will probably read this later, miss him loads :(

Bye.

Sat in the dark ..

Yep thats right, that's how sad I am. Sat in the dark, on Zoo World on facebook and blogging. The light from the screen is enough to light up the room though, so there isn't any need to waste electricity by turning the light on? Am I becoming too paranoid? No doubt about it, to be honest. But it's the way I am now, and I can't stop being me. I'm off to Adams soon but I don't know whether I want to ride my bike or get a bus? I suppose I could to save some money, but it's annoying not being able to listen to your music or anything because you're just alone with your thoughts.. but I suppose I concentrate so much on not being hit by a speeding car or massive bus to really pay attention to anything else!

I had English today and carried on with my coursework, I still need to do one more recording of my mum 'asserting her authority' to complete my comparison and there isn't anyone here that she can shout at seeing as Lauren's gone to dads, and she won't shout at me or Jordan. So .. I have until Tuesday so I hope I can get it done by then! Then I had a free so I wandered about and then did some more photography work and then met Charlotte, Alfie, Hayley and Laura at the Malvern for some lunch. Was nice to just sit and chat, and have a shouting match with Alfie across the table. He's only 10 months old but he's a laugh :) I then went back and did some more photography work until my lesson started, and then I had photography. So basically i've done a fair bit today. In order to get an A i've been told that you need to experiment more than you did throughout your first year (and I did a fair bit, but it was all at basic level i've found..) so I decided to whack the inks and watercolours out and do some dripping and mixing to make more 'mixed media'/'textiley' finished images! They aren't going to be mounted up as a final piece but it will show that i've experimented more than by just changing the colours, cropping and layering on photoshop. My friends have said that i've done loads and will definately be able to achieve my target of a B, and i've done the equivilent to 40 A4 pages (My sketchbook is landscape A3!) and am going to end up with about 6-7 final pieces mounted up .. which isn't so bad, but it just doesn't seem enough to be able to achieve a high grade because of how much we were told to do last year. I suppose that's what happens when you have an independent study. Hopefully i'll have my essay and all my photos finished by half term so I can start on my exam preperation after half term, because I can't afford to fall behind.

Tom was supposed to be emailing me the playlist for the radio show on tuesday, which I don't think I have recieved, meaning that I won't have my radio script done until the night before the show. But Adam's going away to that big show in Birmingham to work until thursday so I will probably have some free time on my hands! At least that will keep me busy, although it will probably only take about 15 minutes anyway!

I tried to have an evening out with my mum last night. I asked her to go to dinner with me (only to Wetherspoons, seeing as she would have been working all day and it's close and not too expensive..) and she agreed, but then said that morning that we would go for a drink and then come home for dinner. Then when I met her outside her work I told her I had to fill out a questionnaire so she said "Did you want to do it another time then?", even though I said the questionnaire would only take about 15 minutes. And then she said that dinner was at half 6, only giving us an hour? It was nice to spend time with her but it wasn't really what I wanted to be honest. And I haven't seen my dad in about two weeks, which is annoying. But we're going to New York next weekend so at least I can spend time with him then. I just don't like distancing from the people that matter the most to me? But my parents don't seem to be really jumping at the chance to go out with me? Lovely. I suppose i'll just have to keep making the effort.

Think my mums back from work .. just seen the light outside go on lol. I wonder when i'll actually get off this laptop and turn the light off so I can get moving onto Adams house? I need to go to Sainsbury's to get some dinner and perhaps something to read on the bus aswell? I've had 5 books for christmas (But 2 of them I bought just before) and i've read two already, but the one i'm on now i'm having trouble getting into. It's called 'Shiver' and it's about a group of wolves that actually turn out to be werewolves, and a girl falls in love with one of the wolves in his human form after seeing the wolf looking at her in her house from the woods? But for some reason i'm just not feeling it. It's not really convincing .. although so-called 'critics' say "It's a powerful love story that will have you hooked from the very first page." Not really. I do want to perservere though because i'm starting to get back into books and I don't like beginning one and leaving it unfinished, and I know if I leave it too long I won't ever finish it and it'll be a waste of money. And once I finish it I can give it to charity :) Resulttttt. Loll.

Well anyway .. another random rant over. Byeee.

Relief.

That's another thing checked off my list! I've just got back from Bournemouth University, for my activity day. There was 28 of us, and we were split into groups and led around to different sessions with different teachers: Print, theory, TV and radio. They were each 20-30 minutes long, and we had to answer all these little questions and just have a bit more of a taster. I showed the print teacher what I had done in the Daily Echo and he asked why I was taking a gap year. I was the only one out of my group to actually speak in the theory bit, which was good because at least I stood out and made it look like I knew what I was talking about. In the TV, we just had to read off an auto-cue and have a look around the studio. It was more like a taster on an open day to be honest. The radio one was a bit more scary, because the woman split the group of 7 into 4 and 3 and we had to answer these questions. They were more like questions that you would be marked out of 10 for, and it was annoying because by the time the two to the right of me answered, there was no really good answers left. I tried to slip in all the stuff i'd done on the radio at college but she didn't seem as enthusiastic as i'd hoped. She seemed really enthusiastic in our answers, but it looked like she wasn't writing any comments down by my name, but writing loads on everyone else's (Because my name was at the bottom of the page, due to my last name beginning with T), but I can't really know for certain because it was across a table, and I got so distracted by trying to read the comments that I almost missed the question she asked us. Then we got taken into the recording studio and took turns reading different passages. I was a bit nervous because i'd told them that I was a presenter, so I think he expected me to be really good, so I tried my best and he said that I was brilliant and I did it really well and at a good pace. The others said that I nailed it, and when it was played back the guy next to me said it again. But still, not really much enthusiasm. I don't really know what I was expected to be honest.

I just think that the interview process was a bit too vague to base a reason for acceptance on? But they did say that it was more of an activity day, and not an interview. In a way I wish it was based on an interview, because at least they concentrated on me more as an individual?

There were only 28 on the activity day, and apparently there are three on seperate dates, meaning it would be about 90. Thats how many were accepted onto the course out of the 800 ish that applied last year? I can't know for certain but perhaps i'm closer to being accepted than I thought? I don't really want to get my hopes up though..

Occording to the TV teacher we find out whether or not we got through to the next stage within a week? Does that mean I definately get a place, or that i've just got an interview? I don't know .. need to calm down now and get ready for my next interview. Westminsterrrr. Woop!

Adams coming over soon, and we're going to have a nice relaxing night in -- can't wait!

Nervous.

I've got my Bournemouth activity day tomorrow .. and i'm starting to get quite scared. But i've got all the preperation I could get (Which doesn't include my radio recordings because I couldn't find anyone to help me get them off the stupid radio PC that has disabled EVERYTHING), and i've researched and picked out my outfit and everything. Annoying thing is, is that I have to get up at 6am tomorrow to get ready, and get a bus at 6.40am, then a train at 7.18am, then a bus (Which reminds me .. I need to actually find out which bus it is, it should be on my letter that I still need to put in my bag!) that goes to the university. I've got a little idea of what they're going to ask me, as I went and had a little interview prep session with a past graduate of the course, but it may have changed since she went for her interview a few years back. Managed to get the day off college which is great, but i'm scared incase I get lost .. and I haven't actually figured out how i'm going to pay for my bus once I get into Bournemouth, seeing as I only have a £5 note in my purse and £6 on my debit card. Fun times.

Devastated by the news of the earthquake in Hairi. Obviously, earthquakes are common there as they live on the line between two plates and I heard them say on the news at college today that they get earthquakes of that size every couple of hundred years due to the shifting. But it doesn't beat the fact that it's horrible to see people in such devastation, as they are a poor country anyway, and do not have sturdy buildings or proper healthcare or anything. It makes me stop and evaluate things. I like to do all I can to help others, and I thoroughly believe that if I dedicate myself to helping others and being less selfish, it could benefit everyone. My certificate came today, confirming that my tree that I had bought for me for christmas has been planted where it is needed - I think this will be the most frequent present, and frankly .. it has got to be my best one this year! I saw in the shop window in Oxfam that they're looking for donations, but I already donated lots of things to Help The Aged, and I don't know if I have anything else to give. I really want to, but as I mentioned earlier I have no money! I'm sure I can find some somewhere, thats if they are taking money? But i've been told that when you buy things from Oxfam, they take a large share of the profits? It makes me feel as though they're promoting themselves as a charity but in fact they aren't? I'm on the website now, and am quite happy that i've found a solar bike light :) It has a donation section on the website for the people affected, and I don't like the fact that I have nothing to donate. I get my EMA on sunday, and I definitely donate something then. Lets just hope everyone can pick themselves up with the help of others, and rebuild. This gives us a chance to stop being so selfish and help those in need.

I think my family are beginning to grow tired of me always switching appliances off. My sister came downstairs from her bedroom and said: "Why is it always so dark in here?" and then I heard: "It's Sophie switching all the lights off, you know what she's like.. just switch them back on again." It angers me when people get annoyed about it because it is sheer laziness! What is the point in having the dining room, kitchen, hall and bathroom lights on if people are in their bedrooms? JUST INCASE people want to come outside and have the extremely difficult task of finding a light switch?! It annoys me. We hardly ever use the desk lamp next to the computer, so I turned it off from the mains (which are easily accessible under the computer desk) so people can just turn in on when they use it. My mum then came in a couple of days later and asked me if I turned the light off. I said that I did and she started going mental saying that she thought the light had broken and went and brought another light bulb?! I couldn't help but laugh! It doesn't take much to turn a switch on? I know i'm being annoying, but I don't care anymore. Being the way I am is nothing to be embarrassed about and it's catching on slowly. Adams trying his best, and I respect and love him for it. I never leave the house without a carrier bag and everything that can be recycled is recycled (I have a mountain of recycled stuff that needs to be collected, but it's not being collected until next week and I don't know where my nearest recycling centre is?) and everything can be brought recycled, is. Even my mousemat is made from 80% recycled materials. And it has smarties on it, and looks exactly the same. I now need to somehow convince my family that you don't need to fly to your holiday destinations, and that there are better alternatives? But that may take a while. I'm off to New York in February, and to be honest I feel incredibly guilty. But, my dad bought the tickets to take us on a holiday .. so it will be like my farewell to plane journeys, seeing as I don't intend to take a plane anywhere unless I have to? Go me :) I want to sign up to petitions and everything, but I don't like to hear about it 24/7. I like normality, obviously.

Right, i've had a rant about this .. and I see that it is the topic of most of my entries? But at this point in time I feel like I can't really talk to anyone about it properly (apart from Adam of course, but even he gets tired of it!), so i'll just write it down on here where no one will really read it. Perhaps i'll just give up university and join Greenpeace? Theres a thought ... ahh tomorrow!

14th.

Just did my good deed for the day :)

Emailed my favourite hair product company and suggested that they do eco-refills for their hair products, like Kenco do. The bottles are big enough and the lids are easily openable.. it saves Kenco 97% packaging, so I thought i'd suggest. I'm going to suggest it to other companies aswell, but i'll see how it goes down with Aussie first.

Just had a shower, and before that went and got a folder for my journalistic portfolio. Kind of annoyed that I couldn't go into work and get one made out of recycled board, but I didn't have time (seeing as Iain kept me waiting for an hour and a half, thinking he was going to come into town with me, and then said he couldn't because he had work to do!) so I had to settle for a Wilkinsons one .. but to be honest i'll re-use it anyway! I've got to stick all of my clippings and stuff onto card and put them in the folder. It's not going to be a big portfolio but hopefully it'll be impressive that I have began one. I have also bought an address book, where I will begin to store my contacts, meaning that it will take up less space on my phone :) I also need to sort out my memory stick (It's saying that the 'disk is write-protected' and refusing to let me put anything on or take anything off it) so I can put some radio recordings of me on there and show them. I also need some copies of radio scripts. I'll do this all tomorrow seeing as I don't have enough money to go to Sam's birthday tomorrow. It's annoying, but i'll get over it! I can't justify spending any money on alcohol when i've had to borrow money off my mum to pay for the train ticket to Bournemouth for my interview on thursday! I also have an interview in Harrow at the end of the month, but hopefully i'll receive some EMA before then so that I can actually pay for it. I'm just about to pack up my stuff to go to Adams, then i'll go have my dinner and make my way over there! Really want to start riding my bike, but I need to go get a light to put on it (Hopefully an environmentally friendly one!) so that I don't get knocked down and forced to wear a luminous orange jacket! It's also very icy so i'm quite hesitant, seeing as i've never rode on the roads amoungst traffic before. That should be fun.. i'll probably start crying or have a panic attack or something!

New 0% emission cars are being introduced next year by Renault. Can't wait to start seeing them on the road, and hopefully set the ball rolling :) I'll be buying one (as soon as i'm not skint and have to pay back a student loan!) Funtimes. Right, i'm off .. hopefully i'll write in soon. I haven't really used the computer much recently, partly because i'm not on my own a lot. But when I do, it's nice to babble on into a blog and know that it is unlikely that anyone will be reading (except from Adam, who as soon as he knows i'm blogging checks it out on his phone!! :P) Perhaps I should make a blog about something specific .. that people can subscribe to? That could be good practise. Or I could just follow in Perez Hiltons footsteps and blog about celebrities and gossip. That'll be a good start :D I'll sleep on it though .. maybe it won't seem as good in my head tomorrow morning!