Day 3 of 4

Hey there. I got a job as a barmaid at The Square :) Had the interview yesterday and they told me there and then, not baaaaad. Really nervous, because it's late shifts and I feel too young because everyone goes out and parties every night and goes in there, and I don't even really go to town! I start tomorrow night at half 10 .. the time Adam was supposed to be coming home :( I felt so terrible but I couldn't just say no to my first night (Seeing as i'm going to New York on saturday and then i'm going to Bournemouth the following saturday with Adam.) Adam was really upset and annoyed but I think he's okay now. I hope so, because I like it when he supports me and is always there when I need to talk to someone.

Finished my photography essay (which is half of my coursework!) this morning, and I just need to print my photos off in the next lesson i'm in. I just need to do my english coursework now .. which I really don't feel like doing, and it needs to be done by Friday. I'm not actually going to be in college on friday but i'll email it to him.

It's been really cold today, sometimes cloudy, sometimes sunny. Had the teeniest bit of snow (Apparently we're catching the end of it being moved across or something..) and everyones like "Oh thats so wierd!" But last february it was snowing? I just hate when people highlight that something isn't normal, makes me worry. Didn't help that my friend randomly said: "It's global warming!" But to be honest, she doesn't know much about it and she doesn't seem to care too much so yeah .. it's a bit silly to get worked up about that. But things like that set me off.

I'm starting to worry about everything now. I'm turning into a very cautious person. I'm worrying about upsetting people and things happening to me and other people. I don't knowwww, it's stressful and quite tiring at times. I could just do with a nice big cuddle from Adam. I hate when we argue, and it makes it worse because he's in Birmingham. But he's coming home tomorrow, so i'm going to bus to his so i'm there when he gets back, then he's going to give me a lift to work at half 10, and wait at my house for me. How sweet of him :)

Haha. Just gone four o'clock and i'm in bed. Now that's just sad. I literally got up this morning and put on jeans, a big guys hoodie and my uggs. I looked a state to be honest, but I really wasn't bothered. I think i'm just going to go watch movies on my laptop, do some work and have an early night. I hope I can get to sleep a bit earlier because I didn't get to sleep until 2am last night. Text Adam but he didn't text back :( Really wanted to talk to him, but it was okay .. I fell asleep soon after. Just got a ring from Kim inviting me to town with her and Iain. I said I would go earlier after Iain was done getting his car fixed but I really don't feel like it now! Me and Iain went to Charlotte's at lunch today, and i've just got back now and i'm actually really tired! But I don't know if I could sleep. I think I may just watch 4od episodes of Glee to cheer me up. It'll catch me up to speed as well. I've just put the first episode on .. so i'm going to go, may write in later. Bye :)