Sat in the dark ..

Yep thats right, that's how sad I am. Sat in the dark, on Zoo World on facebook and blogging. The light from the screen is enough to light up the room though, so there isn't any need to waste electricity by turning the light on? Am I becoming too paranoid? No doubt about it, to be honest. But it's the way I am now, and I can't stop being me. I'm off to Adams soon but I don't know whether I want to ride my bike or get a bus? I suppose I could to save some money, but it's annoying not being able to listen to your music or anything because you're just alone with your thoughts.. but I suppose I concentrate so much on not being hit by a speeding car or massive bus to really pay attention to anything else!

I had English today and carried on with my coursework, I still need to do one more recording of my mum 'asserting her authority' to complete my comparison and there isn't anyone here that she can shout at seeing as Lauren's gone to dads, and she won't shout at me or Jordan. So .. I have until Tuesday so I hope I can get it done by then! Then I had a free so I wandered about and then did some more photography work and then met Charlotte, Alfie, Hayley and Laura at the Malvern for some lunch. Was nice to just sit and chat, and have a shouting match with Alfie across the table. He's only 10 months old but he's a laugh :) I then went back and did some more photography work until my lesson started, and then I had photography. So basically i've done a fair bit today. In order to get an A i've been told that you need to experiment more than you did throughout your first year (and I did a fair bit, but it was all at basic level i've found..) so I decided to whack the inks and watercolours out and do some dripping and mixing to make more 'mixed media'/'textiley' finished images! They aren't going to be mounted up as a final piece but it will show that i've experimented more than by just changing the colours, cropping and layering on photoshop. My friends have said that i've done loads and will definately be able to achieve my target of a B, and i've done the equivilent to 40 A4 pages (My sketchbook is landscape A3!) and am going to end up with about 6-7 final pieces mounted up .. which isn't so bad, but it just doesn't seem enough to be able to achieve a high grade because of how much we were told to do last year. I suppose that's what happens when you have an independent study. Hopefully i'll have my essay and all my photos finished by half term so I can start on my exam preperation after half term, because I can't afford to fall behind.

Tom was supposed to be emailing me the playlist for the radio show on tuesday, which I don't think I have recieved, meaning that I won't have my radio script done until the night before the show. But Adam's going away to that big show in Birmingham to work until thursday so I will probably have some free time on my hands! At least that will keep me busy, although it will probably only take about 15 minutes anyway!

I tried to have an evening out with my mum last night. I asked her to go to dinner with me (only to Wetherspoons, seeing as she would have been working all day and it's close and not too expensive..) and she agreed, but then said that morning that we would go for a drink and then come home for dinner. Then when I met her outside her work I told her I had to fill out a questionnaire so she said "Did you want to do it another time then?", even though I said the questionnaire would only take about 15 minutes. And then she said that dinner was at half 6, only giving us an hour? It was nice to spend time with her but it wasn't really what I wanted to be honest. And I haven't seen my dad in about two weeks, which is annoying. But we're going to New York next weekend so at least I can spend time with him then. I just don't like distancing from the people that matter the most to me? But my parents don't seem to be really jumping at the chance to go out with me? Lovely. I suppose i'll just have to keep making the effort.

Think my mums back from work .. just seen the light outside go on lol. I wonder when i'll actually get off this laptop and turn the light off so I can get moving onto Adams house? I need to go to Sainsbury's to get some dinner and perhaps something to read on the bus aswell? I've had 5 books for christmas (But 2 of them I bought just before) and i've read two already, but the one i'm on now i'm having trouble getting into. It's called 'Shiver' and it's about a group of wolves that actually turn out to be werewolves, and a girl falls in love with one of the wolves in his human form after seeing the wolf looking at her in her house from the woods? But for some reason i'm just not feeling it. It's not really convincing .. although so-called 'critics' say "It's a powerful love story that will have you hooked from the very first page." Not really. I do want to perservere though because i'm starting to get back into books and I don't like beginning one and leaving it unfinished, and I know if I leave it too long I won't ever finish it and it'll be a waste of money. And once I finish it I can give it to charity :) Resulttttt. Loll.

Well anyway .. another random rant over. Byeee.