Nervous.

I've got my Bournemouth activity day tomorrow .. and i'm starting to get quite scared. But i've got all the preperation I could get (Which doesn't include my radio recordings because I couldn't find anyone to help me get them off the stupid radio PC that has disabled EVERYTHING), and i've researched and picked out my outfit and everything. Annoying thing is, is that I have to get up at 6am tomorrow to get ready, and get a bus at 6.40am, then a train at 7.18am, then a bus (Which reminds me .. I need to actually find out which bus it is, it should be on my letter that I still need to put in my bag!) that goes to the university. I've got a little idea of what they're going to ask me, as I went and had a little interview prep session with a past graduate of the course, but it may have changed since she went for her interview a few years back. Managed to get the day off college which is great, but i'm scared incase I get lost .. and I haven't actually figured out how i'm going to pay for my bus once I get into Bournemouth, seeing as I only have a £5 note in my purse and £6 on my debit card. Fun times.

Devastated by the news of the earthquake in Hairi. Obviously, earthquakes are common there as they live on the line between two plates and I heard them say on the news at college today that they get earthquakes of that size every couple of hundred years due to the shifting. But it doesn't beat the fact that it's horrible to see people in such devastation, as they are a poor country anyway, and do not have sturdy buildings or proper healthcare or anything. It makes me stop and evaluate things. I like to do all I can to help others, and I thoroughly believe that if I dedicate myself to helping others and being less selfish, it could benefit everyone. My certificate came today, confirming that my tree that I had bought for me for christmas has been planted where it is needed - I think this will be the most frequent present, and frankly .. it has got to be my best one this year! I saw in the shop window in Oxfam that they're looking for donations, but I already donated lots of things to Help The Aged, and I don't know if I have anything else to give. I really want to, but as I mentioned earlier I have no money! I'm sure I can find some somewhere, thats if they are taking money? But i've been told that when you buy things from Oxfam, they take a large share of the profits? It makes me feel as though they're promoting themselves as a charity but in fact they aren't? I'm on the website now, and am quite happy that i've found a solar bike light :) It has a donation section on the website for the people affected, and I don't like the fact that I have nothing to donate. I get my EMA on sunday, and I definitely donate something then. Lets just hope everyone can pick themselves up with the help of others, and rebuild. This gives us a chance to stop being so selfish and help those in need.

I think my family are beginning to grow tired of me always switching appliances off. My sister came downstairs from her bedroom and said: "Why is it always so dark in here?" and then I heard: "It's Sophie switching all the lights off, you know what she's like.. just switch them back on again." It angers me when people get annoyed about it because it is sheer laziness! What is the point in having the dining room, kitchen, hall and bathroom lights on if people are in their bedrooms? JUST INCASE people want to come outside and have the extremely difficult task of finding a light switch?! It annoys me. We hardly ever use the desk lamp next to the computer, so I turned it off from the mains (which are easily accessible under the computer desk) so people can just turn in on when they use it. My mum then came in a couple of days later and asked me if I turned the light off. I said that I did and she started going mental saying that she thought the light had broken and went and brought another light bulb?! I couldn't help but laugh! It doesn't take much to turn a switch on? I know i'm being annoying, but I don't care anymore. Being the way I am is nothing to be embarrassed about and it's catching on slowly. Adams trying his best, and I respect and love him for it. I never leave the house without a carrier bag and everything that can be recycled is recycled (I have a mountain of recycled stuff that needs to be collected, but it's not being collected until next week and I don't know where my nearest recycling centre is?) and everything can be brought recycled, is. Even my mousemat is made from 80% recycled materials. And it has smarties on it, and looks exactly the same. I now need to somehow convince my family that you don't need to fly to your holiday destinations, and that there are better alternatives? But that may take a while. I'm off to New York in February, and to be honest I feel incredibly guilty. But, my dad bought the tickets to take us on a holiday .. so it will be like my farewell to plane journeys, seeing as I don't intend to take a plane anywhere unless I have to? Go me :) I want to sign up to petitions and everything, but I don't like to hear about it 24/7. I like normality, obviously.

Right, i've had a rant about this .. and I see that it is the topic of most of my entries? But at this point in time I feel like I can't really talk to anyone about it properly (apart from Adam of course, but even he gets tired of it!), so i'll just write it down on here where no one will really read it. Perhaps i'll just give up university and join Greenpeace? Theres a thought ... ahh tomorrow!